For the past week I have just been stumbling from day to day doing what I had to do and no more. Not wanting to see or speak to anybody and bursting into tears at the slightest thing.
Losing my Sister just has to be the shittiest thing ever but today I have put my head up out of the mire of misery for a couple of hours.
Andy said I needed to get out and get some fresh air so he took me to the garden centre for a gentle stroll around then on to the pub for a refreshing glass of lemonade and I do feel a little better for it I really do.
Maggies funeral has been set for June 7th which seems an awfully long wait to me. I am not sure if this is normal or not.
The plague of little black flies we get every year outside the back door has descended yet again meaning that even in this heat we can't have the back door or windows open without them filling the house. I wish I knew how to get rid of them.....they make me itch just thinking about them.
Two really hot days is enough of a summer for me.....roll on winter.
I hope you are all managing to stay cool.
Sheila-x-
it all sounds normal to me, dont be so hard on yourself :-)
ReplyDeleteThank you Dawn-x-
Deleteall sounds normal to me too. I'm sorry you've lost your sister. Life can be a pile of crap sometimes.
ReplyDeleteI'm with you. Two days and I'm done. Bring back the rain, sleet and snow.
all the best x
Thank you Sadie-x-
DeleteWaiting for the funeral is the worst, life seems to be on hold until then. And when the funeral's a long way off (this seems to be the norm now), the wait just seems to be interminable. It's good you were able to get out for a while. Sending you a virtual hug (wish I could give you a real one).
ReplyDeleteThank you Sooze-x-
DeleteI agree that the long wait for the funeral makes life more difficult to cope with. I'm glad that you went out for a little while today although I'm done with the heat already here. Your family know you best and will continue to provide the front line support you need now and in the days to come. We're here to provide backroom support as and when you need it. Take care. Catriona
ReplyDeleteThank you Catriona...the support is very much appreciated-x-
Deleteits the little steps that help you pull yourself up from the grief ...be kind to yourself chuck
ReplyDeleteThank you Kate-x-
DeleteWaiting for a funeral, and it's always an age nowadays, isn't easy, but
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you got out for fresh air. Take care of yourself - a day at a time. Hugs from Suffolk too
Thank you Sue-x-
DeleteYou do what you need to do to get through Sheila. A bit of fresh air was a good idea though.
ReplyDeleteBe kind to yourself. X
Thank you Jules-x-
DeleteHugs Sheila. I've been thinking of you. Take care of yourself. A walk around the garden sounds like a good idea.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sharon-x-
DeleteI'm glad you got out for a while and just getting through this time is a challenge. My thoughts continue to be with you, Sheila.
ReplyDeleteThank you Amy-x-
DeleteHorrible, horrible time! - be kind to yourself and do or don't do what you need to xx
ReplyDeleteThank you-x-
DeleteSending tender hugs and thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteHazel c uk
Thank you Hazel-x-
DeleteWell its lovely to see you back here and it's good to hear that you've had a little walk out today - just keep going, a little at a time, it's not going to be easy but you have your lovely little family to support and love you - sending hugs xx
ReplyDeleteThank you Trudie-x-
DeleteMy dearest Sheila,
ReplyDeleteHugs from the Midwest, USA - we all grieve in different ways. Sisters are so precious and so hard to carry on once they are gone. Don't worry about bursting into tears at odd times. My own dear sister was 51 when she died and even a year later under certain conditions I would cry for her.
I will continue to pray that our dear Savior comforts you and gives you strength.
One foot in front of the other dear friend.
Sandy
Thank you Sandy-x-
DeleteOh Sheila....yes it is a really horrid time for you and your family the moment...and yes I'm afraid funerals do seem to take a while to arrange nowadays. Hopefully the formalities will go smoothly...I'm heading up your way tomorrow for a few days if you're out in the fresh air somewhere dog friendly and you want a shoulder to cry on. Big huggies...Jackie. xx
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Jackie.
DeleteYou know I would love to meet up with you when you are up here but I would rather it be when we can have a laugh and a good old chat so maybe next time you come up....we could meet up at Carsington which is very dog friendly-x-
Very understandable...will remember to let you know when I'm next up and able! x
DeleteAgree with all about the limbo time waiting for the funeral,it is so very hard.Glad you managed a little outing today.Thinking of you xx
ReplyDeleteThank you Chris-x-
DeleteOne day at a time Sheila, take care.
ReplyDeleteThank you MM-x-
DeleteWaiting for a funeral is an awful time. 7th June does seem a long way off but Mark's Dad's took 3 weeks so I guess in some cases it's normal. It just feels like everything is on hold until it happens.
ReplyDeleteI think all your emotions are perfectly normal. Don't expect too much from yourself, it's very early days. Hugs. xx
Thank you Suzanne-x-
DeleteOh my Sweet lovely friend. I've not been in blogland really and have had to scoot backwards to see what's wrong. I'm so sorry to hear of your awful news. Sending you lots of love xxx no words can change a thing but you are in my heart x
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